Went to bed at like midnight last night with the awesome help of NyQuil Cold and Flu. Awoke in the morning to pee at 8:20am full of energy, 20 minutes before my alarm was scheduled to go off. I was starting to think I was actually going to have a energetic and good day. I went to school and started trying to pay attention in class and I hadn't done the reading for class for the first time. So I can't exactly compare the experience in terms of how involved I was. All I know was that I wasn't compelled to talk or contribute, that there seemed to be an increased comfort level in silence and listening. People seem to talk more than usual, or I am just not interrupting as much. All through class I was trying to even look at people while they spoke but every time I would move my eyes left or right I would get extremely light-headed and dizzy. Almost as if my head were a balloon tied down to the heavy weight of the rest of my body. I felt like passing out during the entire class. I did add my two cents once and my heart starting racing ridiculously fast but I didn't quite feel anxious because it was as it I wasn't totally occupied with the panic. I did suddenly feel out of breath for no reason though. I feel like I'm not totally into my interactions with people, and that things are sort of automatic. I do respond and think, but I feel like there's something missing; I'm not thinking enough. I wonder if people notice or think its more pleasant talking to this new zombie version of me, or they miss the quirkiness that I exhibited randomly before. I feel as though I'm less funny. That all my emotions are less polar. Everyone is walking much faster than me everyday. I used to be whizzing past the others but again I feel slowed by this drug. I also don't feel more motivated. I cringed at the thought of doing and kind of paper, when before, without any drugs, school was no real big deal. Also there is a programming project assignment which I usually do the day it assigned, but for some reason now I don't feel like doing it. Work seems like it would be really difficult. I am going to try and do my programming project which should be easy and enjoyable. Also gave up on the penis, it is a useless small organ that dangles between my legs now.