I've been hangning out with my friend Mikey, who for the past months I have felt very alienated from, because I have different opinions about drugs. I have been comfortable with him lately, and comfortable with a lot of people. I smoked cigarettes with cigarette smokers, and I talked with a lot of strangers, but I had to, cause I crashed my car. (Details on that later.) I think that I am less stressed out, but also notice That I do not talk to people, or go out of my way to talk to people like I did when I was stressed about not being in my center. I feel as if I'm losing that line. I want to be able to center and be me, which I tend to be able to do if I am in the right situation with the same people for a while. But still I miss a sense of sovereignity.

I am listening to a pyschological treatment lecture, and I am wondering whether to just get medicated.