I'm waking up at 1:22PM, very tired. last night I had to halt my journal entry, because the birds had begun to chirp. Anyways, I was deeper in my center and more often in my center. Mikey saw me smoke on Friday, and I was completely relaxed in my center.. He said I was "cured," so he decided that at 2:00am, we go smoke more weed with Allan and Friends. Having hooked up with the girl I was very relzaed in my center and so I was unusually relaxed with Allan and his friends. We smoked weed, I was more relaxed. But there were five of us, and only 4 controllers. I was a spectator which put me in my head. What I've decided is my introverted part of me. On occasion there would be something that would switch on my extrovert, and immediately center me. I went to sleep + now It's sunday. Pedro, who was able to take me from non-paranoid off-center to centered. But I feel like I might move into Paranoid off center. THis doubt is probably a creation of self-fufilling worries like smoking weed reverese the healing process. I want to write, "I'm going to go relax", But I just need to relax. Its easy when there's already conversation,. Man why does it matter? RELAX!