Its been a while. Quick post. keep a log of how I'm feeling. I just got anxiety medication and have been taken .125 mg 2x a day. I took some really late last night, and 11 hours later I woke from terrible sleep. I was anxious, the characters I interacted with were stressed out. Usually my dreams flow like good movies and every character is really feeling based on whats going on, and the dream felt incredibly disconnected and shallow-plotted. I am always thiking about the medication and what its doing to me. I wonder if I'm socially different. I wonder If I talking more but saying less. I think less, but does the fact that it feels like Im spending less time on each thought (it feels like none at all.) mean that the quality of those thoughts are reduced? Maybe I should try to stop thinkng about having taken the drugs. Maybe that is really what is making me change my personality. Maybe the fact that I know that Ive taken them makes me want to act more outright more upfront in social situations and maybe I just havent allowed myself to keep my introverted thought forming because I'm constantly expecting the drug to have strong effects. But on the other hand maybe the drug is detrimental to quality thoughts, and maybe I enjoy spending a lifetime weighing the pros and cons of everything and knowing nothing.