I notice when I am not connecting with people, because they avoid my eyes when I am not in my center. Unfortunately there is no force urging me to relax, I don't seem to have the emotional capacity to care whether I am myself or nor. Sometimes I wonder if I'll be stuck in my gead, and although I'm starting to find it interesting, knowing the link between being myself, and what energies people receive, I would much rather jut be me all the time. But I am still most of the time in my head, not kniowing what I would be doing if I were in my center,; not really caring, and almost accepting my void. I feel as if I'm constantly confined but I do not even remember what is outside the box. I haven't been in my center for a long time now. Actually that's probably not true, but when I am in my center, I am not evaluating anything as much, and it doesn't file. I need to stop getting therapy. .