I might as well take my time in this class to think about how I feel. I am not being closed in, as if I am in my "comfort zone." I feel more like avoiding cognitive dissonance. It feels more like I am just accepting defeat, as my silence tkaes the places of my nervous excitement. But at the same time, I know I must be in my head, but I don't have a trigger to my center. I think the conversation is too personal. I dunno whether to accept my introversio as normal, or whether I would be trying to get in the conversation. Saturday night, I felt mostly anger and disgust, towards other other people and myself for being angry. It was like confidence, btu I didn't care for talking. It was as if I was angry vecause I was tired, (usually due to the stress of being in my head) but unaware of what really was making me so. I think I am avoiding eye-contact. I;m avoiding the stress that comes with shifting to my center -- But I Don't want to fake smile or anything. Is not talking to someone I dont know too well normal? Sometimes I would speak to strangers. I just don't feel like laughing, trying to smile or trying to laugh.